One of the most intense emotional experiences that fatherhood brings is an uncanny closeness to one's own mortality. Morbid? Maybe. True? Undoubtedly. It is impossible not to picture the after. Intense love brings an intense desire to treat every moment as if it could be the last. Now, desire alone does not always translate to perfect action. This is why, in reality, we do not treat every moment as if it could be the last. Nevertheless, the desire persists. Post fatherhood, in a completely new way. You think about the position your family is in, the position you are headed towards, and the position you want to leave them in when the clock runs out.